The curse of curves 8

  I woke up the next day, it was 4pm. Two more hours till i meet Shatha. I headed to the gym, when i was finished it was 5:30pm. I went back home, toke a quick shower and i was on my way to Mimzar. I arrived at 6pm.

I texted Shatha "wainch ? its six"
I got a reply "the beginning of the beach"

I drove there and i saw a girl standing, having her shailah cover face. I parked infront of her and she got in. Not removing the shailah. After a few minutes, she did and without looking up at me she said

"ok listen, whoever you are, AYA DOESNT WANT YOU, so LEAVE me ALONE ! please ! i can easily call the police and explain everything to them and they'll catch u and i swear if u try any trick on me i got stuff that'll kill u"

F: Like the zapper electric shock thing ?
She looked up, and was surprised.
F: yes its me Faris
Sh: what do u want ?
F: madry, i texted you yesterday, i wanted to see you
Sh: ahaa :S
She tried opening the door to escape but i locked them already.
Sh: open it up faris
F: dont talk alot and stay
Sh: why should i ? u treated me like shit yesterday
F: i was angry
Sh: at Aya ? or ME ?
F: dont get me angry shatha
Sh: u think im scared ? i dont care abt u Faris
F: why ?
Sh: because u were VERY mean to me :S and ur rude and ur stupid
F: and i loved her
Sh: get over it !!!!! :S
F: i cant

I was beginning to get tears in my eyes, its not easy getting over your first love. I was ashamed of Shatha, i was fooled infront of her and i felt weak.

Sh: try then Faris, u have to try
F: Shatha madry a5af knt a7bha, w a7een ma3arf a7s eni .... eni ...
Sh: ent ma8hoor because she fooled you arent u ?
F: 22ee
Sh: find someone else Faris, perfect someone is out there somewhere
F: do u have someone in mind ?
Sh: *blushes* well not really but im working on it

A rush of jealousy swept across me, what someone else ? I didnt want her to have someone else, shes mine.

F: la wallah ?
Sh: haih and i cant wait to meet him
F: men 9jch ?
Sh: shu balack faris ?
F: enti it7beeni ana bas fahmeh ?
Sh: na3am ?
F: enti mali fahmeh ?
Sh: faris stop talking like a crazy man :S
F: Shatha Al-X enti mali men el youm w sayer fahmeh wela la2 ?
Sh: um ok ? what the hell ?
F: 22EEE WELLLAAA LAAA2 ???
Sh: ok 5ala9 haih haih im urs !!!
F: hathaki el 7mar forget him
Sh: inshallah whatever u say *sarcasm*
F: u better listen to me

I went silent a bit, what have i just said ? Shes mine ? WHO THE HELL AM I TO MAKE HER MINE ? Yes Shatha is mine, and i wont let her go. She wont hurt me like Aya did, atleast she'll love me. I grabbed her hand and squeezed it

Sh: FARIS PLEASE ! ENOUGH IT HURTS !
F: eskti
Sh: FARIS LET GO OF ME !!!!
I squeezed harder until she started screaming then i let go. I loved how she screamed, i ached for her voice and whines. She looked weak, and i loved how weak she looked. Fragile. Innocent. Shes all mine now. Forget, and fuck Aya. Shatha is mine, she was mine all along but i never noticed her.

F: ur ugly
Sh: what ? :S
F: ur ugly, he'll never want you

Why am i hurting her ? I was confused, i was heartbroken. But i didnt want to admit my feelings to her.
Admit that i love her, but im heartbroken. Admit that i want to make her cry, so i can be satisfied. Her tears, that slide down her cheeks, are revenge to what Aya made me feel. Shatha may59ha, but the feeling was satisfying. I felt guilty after making her feel like shit yet i still repeated the same thing.

Two weeks passed and all i said to her was "Ugly, Stupid, Fat and 7mara" Nothing else. Everytime she wanted to leave, i'd stop her and beg her not to leave me. I didnt want her gone, i loved her.
I loved Shatha, it was Shatha. I didnt deserve her but i couldnt leave her, i cant be without her. I NEED her. After all the bitchy comments i gave her, she still stayed and waited.
She loves me, and i think that
Shatha
Is
Mine
Forever.